I guess i could be pretty pissed off about what happened to me, but it's hard to stay mad when there are so much beauty in the world. Sometimes i feel like i'm seeing it all at once and it's too much. My heart fills up like a baloon that about to burst. And than i remember to relax and stop trying to hold on to it. And than it flows through me like rain and i can't feel anything but gratitude for every single moment of my stupid little life. You have no idea what i'm talking about, i'm sure. But don't worry - you will someday.